I admit that I am an impatient person. I even get impatient with myself--not finding the file I'm looking for in my computer at one time led me to a childish tantrum. At that time, I was alone in the room. As my trainees came in, they did see the distress in my face, but the tantrum was over by then. If I get impatient with myself, so much more with other people.
Last Friday, I had a sinking feeling of sadness. Yes, I pray to the Lord everyday. But I'm saddened by the fact that how I am in prayer is not how I am in practice. I may be "holier than thou" in front of the Lord in a chapel or church. But where is the love when I'm out there facing different types of people and being impatient when they do something that's not to my liking? I was saddened by the fact that I am angry at some people and I am impatient with others. Realizing that I myself am imperfect and no better than any human being, why am I being so impatient with others? Have I lost the love of Christ?
I struggle with my impatience everyday. It's more of a spiritual struggle and times like these call for prayers--not only my own--of other people, especially those who are close to me. Today, I reflect on the importance of praying for other people. I remember being told that praying for others is actually quite powerful. The inspiration for this song came from the Gospel according to St. Matthew 18: 19-20. I know I couldn't face my struggles alone. With God--and others praying for me and I for them--every struggle can be overcome.
ESTO LES DIGO
Esto les digo, 'This I say to you,
si dos de ustedes se ponen, if two of you are put,
se ponen de acuerdo aquí en, are put in accord here in,
en la tierra para pedir, in the earth to ask,
pedir algo en oración, to ask anything in prayer,
mi padre que está en el cielo, my Father which is in heaven,
se lo dará. will give it to you.
Porque donde dos o tres se reúnen en mi nombre, Because where two or three are gathered in my name,
allí estoy yo, there am I,
en medio de ellos. in the midst of them.'